The days have come and gone; last day of nursing school. Graduation day. National testing for my license.... all of it. Each day I have woke up, decided that I should move ahead with my dreams to become a nurse and finally... My dreams are realized.
With my goal being met I find myself in an awkward transition. I am waiting for the hiring of a position in my new career. Multiple interviews have occurred at more than one location and I am rehearsing the verbiage 'It is hard to get work these days.' I feel like when I was applying for a job over a decade ago, I basically walked into the place I wanted to work at, filled out an application, interviewed and was hired within two weeks. I don't feel that way now. I know that God's Plan for me is to enjoy what little time I have left with the boys before returning to work full-time in health care. I am SO blessed to have this opportunity and I am able to Delight in Everything.
Long naps. Snuggles with Boomer on the couch. Doing the dishes/showering whenever. Reading books (oh, how I have missed you books)! Taking field trips for school with both boys and volunteering at their school events (because I CAN!), raking the beautiful maple leaves on a perfect autumn day. Sipping a hot cup of coffee on my front step watching the world race about. I know that my days are numbered as to how much more I can be able to enjoy; so I take great Delight. My brother emailed me with a simple reminder that soon enough I will be pleading for a vacation date here or there, someone will always have a deadline or expectation of me and I will have major responsibilities (this time, someones life) in my hands. I recognize those sentiments and thanked him for keeping me focused on what I am able to enjoy, right in front of me.
As I sit here 'waiting' I have had multiple thoughts and plans bubble up. Such as finally having the time to paint the boys bedroom and make it absolutely AWESOME! I want to have something awesome for them to relax and play in when they are home. Not that material items are a big deal to me, but learning, curiosity and bright colors are always what I have had in mind for them as they grow into little boys. I want them to have an understanding of dinosaurs, sports, astronomy, books, faith, music, creativity/artistry, and kindness as they grow. I want them to have a room in which they can invite their friends over and truly enjoy hanging out in. I have looked through some pictures and these got me the most motivated:
So, yeah,... if you can figure out a way to incorporate my boy's bedroom all into one with each of those ideas on a VERY small budget, let me know. :-)
I have also been doing some soul searching. I am a list writer and if you saw my nightstand right now you would see about 15 post-it's with lists, a spiral bound notebook with verses, lists and thoughts, a few faith-centered reads and an empty coffee mug. I am actively seeking out new motivations and goals: I feel lost when I don't have something to aim for. Having just met one of the 'biggies' I am in need of a challenge. I want to live to the fullest and define my dreams for my family.
A couple of them I have already mentioned above, some are materialistic (lame), but some are so simple I almost don't want to write them down. However; proof is in the pudding, this has worked for me before:
-Lead my little men to Him.
-Be ACTIVE, get healthy!
-House projects
-Laugh. Smile. Smile some more.
-Enjoy old and new friendships.
-Feed my soul
-Set an amazing example for the boys.
-Budget with Dave
There are more of course, but I will save those for myself. In the meantime, I will Delight in Everything. -Psalm 37:4
